My First Photograph In Las Vegas

Jordan, Las Vegas 2009

Rarities And B-Sides From Markham's Bedroom

Rarities And B-Sides From Markham's Bedroom 2009

Memento Mori 2009

Untitled 2009

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Francis Bacon Sandwich

Well. It appears no matter where I go, I cannot escape myself. I am probably my own worst enemy. With as much fighting myself and my own ideas as I do, it would seem I would be able to sleep soundly each night. Yet I am tossing and turning every night. My jaw is beginning to lock up the way it used to and I don't know what to do. I am taking new photographs. I have been scanning new negatives. I have been re-scanning old negatives. None of it seems right. I spend too much time looking at other peoples work and comparing myself to what they are doing. Not enough time trying to show what I am doing.

I am doing things. But when I am looking at what I see I frequently am unimpressed. So much of the work that I am exposed to is either aesthetically boring or conceptually boring. Sometimes just all around poor. Shitty point and shoot documentary of the mundane. It seems like the number of "artists" and the number of "photographers" are increasing at an alarming rate... and I don't believe even 1/100th of them are talented enough to deserve any recognition. Especially when the talent lies primarily in the process that is left up to a device rather than an individual. For example, I would like to submit my work to a competition that I have been following for quite some time... well the other day I was lurking their blog and noticed that someone who I know in a sort of off hand way was one of their highlighted entries. HIS WORK FUCKING SUCKS. Nothing to it. Pisses me off.

I really would like to show what I have been doing....

You Can't Go, All The Plants Will Die.

Kid Cudi & Ratatat Bring "Pursuit Of Happiness" To Letterman - Video - Stereogum

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Between Two Ferns with Zach Galifianakis from Between Two Ferns

Wah Qum Ba Twin Ta Ef Renz (Between Two Ferns) W/ Zac Effron (Zach Galafinakis)

Between Two Ferns with Zach Galifianakis from Between Two Ferns

One of the best yet.

I'm not a doctor, although I have been known to dabble in pharmaceuticals

Modern Romance

This is done so well.

The original version by the YYY makes me weep.

The film is great though.

/\Iget anxious

I think about the past and then I get anxious. 

Here is a video to make you feel overwhelmed.

Presented by Red Lobster: SHRIMP TO NO AVAIL

So it has been established that I am somewhere else. It is dry here. I have had something like a mental block when I attempt to create. It is strange for me to not have a million obligations everyday. It is almost like my new freedom overwhelms me. That reminds me of this...

Well that video didn't have the clip that I was looking for but that's alright. It does have the beginning of the clip I was trying to find. Plus it has Larisa Oleynik. Seriously, I love that movie.
So where was I? Being overwhelmed, yes? I am just used to having so many more responsibilities. It is not that I am without inspiration. Quite the opposite really. I frequently have ideas. I am fairly certain my anxiety arises along with gumption toward getting started on new projects. Blah. I don't know. I am stuck up at UNLV monitoring the labs...but I suppose it could be worse...