Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Early Retirement

I know it is early in the game, but I am ready to retire. It can't be good if I am this willing to throw in the towel. Things are not as they appear. And I may have rushed into things with graduate school. Part of me still believes that I wouldn't have the gumption to get back into school at a later stage in my life. What if I don't have the capacity to retain and successfully deal with things at 23. Are my anxieties originating primarily from academia? Or in some extension of this realm? Most of the negative that I encounter is probably linked. 

There are a lot of territory issues... I wasn't aware that I was such a menacing bastard. I thought I was going out of my way to be nice and make friends. Here's a metaphor: esme goes to a new dog park. As soon as she get off her leash all the other dogs go up to her and growl and back. She rolls onto her back to show everyone she doesn't mean any harm. And from then on she plays happily with all the other animals. What if she were to roll on her back and one of the other dogs attacked her? (Well IRL I would fucking kick the shit out of the dog that did that) But speaking in hypotheticals, that would be absurd and the other dog's owner better fucking step up and pay for the vet bills and not act like it was esme's fault. See what I am saying? 

Probably not.

On an unrelated note, Pitchfork rated this album Beast Rest Forth Mouth by Bear in Heaven best new music. So I got this album. Sophomoric. There are parts where it feels like it starts to go somewhere. But I end up wondering "are we there yet?" I hope Pitchfork isn't slipping.

1 comment:

  1. I've been less than impressed with Pitchfork's buzz bands lately. I find the majority of them unbearably boring. Bear In Heaven seems, as you say, sophomoric to me. I've NEVER understood the appeal of Pheonix. Maybe my musical tastes are just maturing (read: I'm getting old).

    I think they're just trying too hard to find bands with indie cred AND commercial appeal. Most of the actual musically exciting bands they designate as "Best New Music" tend to be relatively established (see the new Flaming Lips, Atlas Sound, Fuck Buttons, etc...). I usually trust Tiny Mix Tapes' reccomendations a lot more than Pitchfork's.

    As for grad school - stick it out, for a while at least.

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